quarantine~~

okayy, i know how so annoying it felt being quarantined without any outside communication privileges e.g a cell phone... but thank god sii.. (was it nadhim or ahmad?) brought cards so we're able to playyy BIG TWO!! ahahaha and that time we're playing it~~ i won for at least 4 times STRAIGHT! what a luckk man~~ it's all about strategy and luckkk! and of course the occasion i mentioned here is the time when we (x-5sc1) were quarantined after sitting practical exam.

but i'm not going to talk about exam thingyy right now. maybe next time i'll continue my previous post. so what i actually want to mention here??

well, tonight we're ging to see a moviee~~ okayy does it ring a bell? yes! we're gong to watch quarantine. well, people who are going to the movie later is me, ainibee, bey and bobby. yet to confirm goes tooo giordani, ayen and hal. we have two choices actually, it's either 9.30 movie at mall or 10.30 moviee at qlap mall. big possibility 10.30 moviee at mall i think. well, to be mentioned later...

True colour reveals again.

True colour reveals again. I repeat, TRUE COLOUR reveals AGAIN. okayy, why i'm always exp0sed to posers? Tell me why!! Peeps, do not invest trust, its always let you down. Ohh god. It happens again. I felt cheated. Like everything is to repeat itself... AGAIN! You see i darn care of your life? Like i care!! God, show me the silver ligning upon the dark cloud. I am breathing heavilyy again like i use to. All the memory is to repeat itself again. It is vividlyy clear in my vision. How i suffer... which took times to heal is to become an opening wound again. Say me whatever. I know the truth, and lots of people (true friends of mine) knew it either. I need real friends right now. Ohh god i want to erase my dark past. CURSES!!! Ohh well, life must go on. *breathingg heavillyy*

P.S. Call me whatever, at least i'm not a poser. (:

it's been a week before his departure.

yes i know, it was a very difficult days it has been this this lately. but life is a life andl ife must go on right? i have no idea there were numbers of peope read my previous post and was touched by it.

surprisinglyy, no one is surprised. admittedlyy, my experiance far more worst. i mean with fitnah whatsoever but today is puasa right? i don't want to talk about it anymore. let's just forget eand forgive shall we?

okayy, few days ago my nini lambak held majlis tahlil(to be posted soon). there, i met my cousins, uncle and aunties. they read my blog and swore that they burst into tears. i mean seriouslyy, who doesn't? so, to shorten the story, just want to remind all that appreciate the peope surrounding you because they might not be here with you tomorrow. and i'm quite surprise they(cousins) guest the right person. i even heard lots of story and they said it was normal.

there was this my mother's friend who experianced the same as ours. and my cousin who happen to be accused of stealing. and lots that i don't want to mention happened right after someone's death and it was really .. REAL LIFE!

but as i was saying just now, life is a life and it has to move on even when you don't want to. so i am in recovery proccess and i say that i'm healed. just ignore the not-so-true rumors and just focus to studyy. i don't want because of this my study drops.

p/s: happy ramadhan readers! (:

al-fatihah to my nini Hj Mohammad bin Hj besar.

in memory of my beloved nini. al-fatihah everyone.

you see. i'm in delimma right now. i think i want to pour everything in here, in this blog. well, you can skip reading this if you want. this is the most sad-est moment i've been through out of my life (so far). here it goes.. on the 24th of august, we lost a father, father-in-law and a grandfather to my family forever. it was very sudden. only my family have no opportunity to see arwah nini for the last time. we were told less than hour before of his death. plus, with the phone-trouble we have which is totally not our fault. we were very sad because of not informed. we are also the family who love him. but people said blood is thicker than water, thing is, i didn't believe my ears when all the rumors saying that we're not coming because of our own carelessness. but seriouslyy, we were NOT INFORMED EARLIER! and it was entirelyy who's fault? (but we never blame others) because it was none of people's fault. and yet one person just want to see us more sad. that person brought things up and put a blame on me (specifically!) i don't know why i was stabbed. he said he heard the rumours of me being so 'sayang credit' and not answering phone. but i was dozzed off and my phone's battery was charged. still, we were informed late! and we never complaint it until he brought this things up.

my parents just want us to keep a hush. we don't want to worsen things. we just pray to god so my grandfather can rest in peace. i missed him already. he was a good grandfather. eventhough he didn't really showed to us (me and my siblings) but deep inside we knew he always love us. the way he he said to us, the way he looked at us and everything he did, i knew he loves us. we felt his lost. his facial expression and his voice always played in my mind lately. and it makes me feel sad. the last time i met him was on 'makan-makan' at his house, it was a week before he went. he was joking with me; when i just arrived there, one of my uncles asked me to give something to the kitchen. so my hand was full, i went straight to the kitchen to deliver the thing and after that i went immediately ti nini and 'salam' nini's hand. he jokingly said that,"inda ko tekilala kan aku ka wang tarus ke dapur" and he smiled, i knew he was just joking. but when i think of it again i feel very sad, i miss him so much. this is the last pictures of him that i took.


arwah nini and aina.


i wish i was in the picture as well.


lucky aini, she has no idea it was a last picture of her with arwah nini.

i feel jealous of aini and aina. when i see the pictures again i don't know why i miss nini so much. lots of time when i think of him my tears drop. i really miss him. nini, we all love you and you know that. he was a good father, a good father-in-law and a good grandfather to us. we always love you and we pray to god may god bless you. we love youu nini... al-fatihah to my nini Hj Mohammad bin Hj besar.

p/s: in memory of him, i hope my readers can recite him with al-fatihah. thank you readers.

What happen recently??

so now, i'm at tutong. before i start to blog the shahbandar's stuff. i guess it's no harm to mention about what'd happen before the journeyy form all the way tutong is started. after all the excitement overwhelming, i must said the packing-stuff thingyy was a bit...



yes yes, i know. well what can you expect mah?? i'd love to pack it early baa bt then something came up (my dad mahh watching DVD) the movie was so darn nice. so i postpone my packing time. but in the end i MANAGE though. i repeat, MANAGE! ahahaha. so i just grabbed any of my clothes and wallaaa (IN THE BAG!)

so i took couple of pictures though when us in the car.



see i'm carrried away already.. nevermind, i just blog bout the shahbandar-stuff for the next blog. so here again, before these lots even happen, many things happen yesterday. firstlyy, i'm not doing really well this latelyy, you know i have to struggle with FLU!! it was so hard, life with flu is like jailed in hell! it's annoying, embarrassing and painfully kill me! good thing when i feel something... (how to describe ah?). something really like want to get out, something really strong, yes something in a state of CLIMAX. then i would feel this... SENSATION OF SNEEZING. hell waa, i was like sneezing every SECONDS! so my doctor said have some this...



it's dee-quuu-ali-lii-linuuum (just want to pronounce it perfectly) .. but i don't think so i said it correctly.

so yesterday in the morning we have this... A.MATH EXTRA CLASS. nothing much to blog though. let me thing something aa. maybe there was something happened yesterday. herm.. hurm.. werm.. NONE, there's NONE! so after this EXTRA-CLASS, guess what, i'm renewing my IDENTITY CARD or what we say my IC. so i went to this place yesterday...



i'll get the renew one on this 26 june (does that date mean anything to you?) so yes, here is the... i don't know what they called it. resit perhaps?



ahahahaha. no laa, that thing (up there) is a FINE of speeding. so guys, drive well, or you'll end up by paying $50. so expensive mahh. so this is my you-know-what resit. is it resit mehh? nevermind, just...



oh yaa! now i remember something. something really really ANNOYING. si muiz. ahahaha. so this is him. teacher-wannabe...


(p/s: key chain in his hand is not his, the boyfriend-and-girlfriend picture can tell that)

before i go to the next blog, we, yes WE (the whole family) went to check up our blood contents. it was just an investigation though. besides, i want to know also what is my blood type. so here some pictures we able to take (it was happen last monday)



my mom, she was... her blood pressure was checked i think. and this is the forms..



my dad already checked his. we all agree to do this mahh, but my dad no need laa, he laready mahh. so this is me before the INJECTION penetrate my vein.



smiling eh? let's see who's smiling now hah. this is when the needle did his job.



but it wasn't really that hurt. even 12-year old boy can take it easily.



but i must said, he really looks so pale. not to mention his finger was super PURPLE. almost like barney. i mean GET OUT! see how little guy like my bro take it. but i must said my little sister... so hard laa. see for yourself...



but heyy, at least she's not crying for so long time. i forgot to capture aini's and mom's with their own very needle. but check this out...



so yes, we all did it. and now have to wait the result until next monday. okayy, not let see who bleed well? lols.



so enough with bloods whatsoever, after going to the clinic, we went to lumapas, paid some visit to my grandparents, my battery so batt, so i only took few pictures. this is us on the way to visit my grandfather's 5-acre land. but we end up been fench with some fench. but this is us...



almost there i think...



so this is what happen recently, i'm going to blog about the shahbandar thingy after this (later aa, so tired oledi) .. i just wake up this morning at 8.20 am but guess what i slept last night at 4.00 am. last night, struggle with insomnia. yes i am tired, but my eyes waa. huh! okayy. blog later.....

FREEDOM!!

So yes, the HELLS was officially end last monday!! huhh. well, some of the results really.. (don't want to mention it) .. as for the NATURE HUNT which is the game whom we-know-who made, obviouslyy no one is interested. the prove is......



okayy, it's not what it looks like. that thing (up there) is just a picture of a NATURE HUNT FORM! we fakelyy wrote few names there, if you look clearlyy behind those three-some-middle fingers. ahahahaha. so, when we fakelyy wrote those names .. someone who was in the list threw his middle fingers when i want to capture the form, then followed by those 2 other fingers in the air then theyy join up together to perform specific funct... (wtf i'm saying?) back to the storyy, i asked them to hold and as darn that was soo cool. too bad my fingers wasn't there.

so, these past few days were really depressing. after the exams, lots of HELL awaits. so basicallyy, my life right now is not promising. plus! with that lots of harsh-but-not-so-harsh words i heard from some 'teachers' .. well, i don't blame them, at least they care bout me. So, that's just not it. well, there should be something good is/was happening to my life. wait... let me think of something.. ermm.. hurm... NONE!! waitt waitt.. there is one. skewl term is finallyy over (withing 2 weeks) yahhoooo!!!

so, now, i'm in the library. fortunatelyy, sai oso here. so i've someone to accompony me. though i spent most of the time with my lappy (nice friend eh?) ahahaha. no laa. actually, he is reading his comic (until now)

werm... okay then, post more later. i'll update you all again okayy. (:

it's unfair!

while THEY (including my sis) watch cinema later watching this boring film (can you see? I'm in pain here) which is 'kata-kata hati', i am stranded with ....



I mean. i know, that is so cruel! I shouldn't be stranded with THOSE in the middle of NOWHERE (my room) .. Some people was like rather goin' out then stayin' home doin' non-crazie stuff! It's KILLING me!

I'm so tired. FED UP! Huhh. I was just arrived from tuiti0n, i missed the breakfast shud be in this morning at mamihh. And shud oso go to the cinema with THEM! Huhh! I am so pissed off!

Despite to this so-boring-and-non-adventureous day i have todayy, i mean look in a bright side ... Okehh i can't think of any. Huhh, it's even worse. Nevermind.

Ermm.. Hurmm.. Huhh *sigh* .. AHHAAA! At least tomorrow is the last dayy of exam. Besides, only two more hell waa. That'll come and go just like that.

So, todayy is the 1st of june. I n0e someone's got his birthdayy this m0nth. So, the end of mayy the month of exam? Sort off (i think)

Okayy, i've to spend some time to my b0oks, THE HORROR, Ahahaha it's not too bad actually, i mean i could perhaps lasts for the first 5 SECONDS! Ahahaha and for the rest of it, maybe i ought to end up sleeping. Like that won't happen? Well, think again. (:

HARI KERJAYA AT ICC?? WTF!!

so now kami ra mamihh. before kami ra mamihh ra ICC kami tadi ada hari kerjaya thingiee.. tp kian.. we end up begila2 wif camera... WHAT A SURPRISE!! ahahaha.

waitt aa. add more krg.. now aku kn usai waa blog ku aa. masuk kn cbox n everting aa. tp na success =( .. i really2 need help. huhhh.

BOREDOM! p/s: at org kawen.

Nothing much to do. So, feel free to post something. Where to start aa? Nywy, now ku duduk2 jaa sambil mp3-ing. Full volume g t0hh cam c tuli sja baa aku aa. Ahahaha. Ra msn, buring ku aa, specific persons nada on9 aa.

Frust ku ee, na jd ra 22ng aa. Kn costomize blog ku ta ku udh nee. Uwaa. Erm. Neva mind. Nywy, duhh byk juwa nywy2 ku ane e. Ahaha. Bh ee. Apa td ne aa? Au aa. Wedding tpt ku aga ane actually my friend/2nd cousin's sis. Ahahaha. I'm waiting for mit ham actually. At least ada something kn dckpkn.

Okehh bejarah udh, nunggu mkn sja lagi ne :PpP ahaha. Sasak ku ee. Ermm. 2 m0e exams left, chem n geo. Ne dis m0nday aa. Meanwhile, esuk cuti sal busday askar, aku mo juwa kn celebrate, pluss energy week aa. Bis udh ka? Mental ku ee. Nada jalan2 ane.

3 shud-be-the-amazing days WASTED! Huhh. Tall story! I shud b enj0ying myself ne lepak2 waa. Ahahaha. Buwhh doa udh. Samseng juwehh ku aa. Msh g bl0gging t0hh. Bh aa. Krg ku add more. Ohh man. I'm addicted!!

p/s: i love myself (wth i just did?)

Soo adicted now!

Addicted? HELL YES! Ntahh npa taya ku gila bl0ging ane. Huhh. Since fs MEMALUI atu x! Sial waa. Banci juwa ku t0hh. Hurmm. Nywy, aku kn sambung yg urg punya 1st impressions ra ku aa.

People who heard bad thing from someone will automaticallyyy think that was true. For g0d sake waa. Everytime i was victimised, i also blamed to be the si JAHAT! I'm use to it oledi though. Huhh, i hv tat jht look.

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DIE DIE DIE!!

apakan?? na mengana title ku aa.. ahahahahah. nywy, just so that no confusion. this is me... i'm just ... whatever.

ahahahaha. main thing is... this is my. the real me. not faker. ahahahaha. how i hate faker. so if i cracked myself up. i laugh like craxi! CRAZINESS eh?? HELL YES!

first impression of people ra ku.. when i'm alone jaa (nada kawan beside ku) .. people will judge me that i'm so PEMALU to the max. not to mention pendiam sja ta ku tohh.

tapi when my friends around me.. people's 1st impressions is .. i'm soo melabang to the max.. i mean f kmi ceta2 2 waa. to the max mlabang nyaa. ktwa g tuu to the max na branti2 nyaa.... ermm. have to go now... so much to rubishing around tapi kn balik tia.. k.. until then......

exam aa.. bulehhh?? depressing juwa ku tohh. sial x.

ahahahahaha. well, mental ku sal xam ane. ntah ee. mls ku kn mikirkn mbge sakit ati sajaa. huhh.. my life is darn filthy BORING to the max waaa.

huhhh. 3 days cuti nee.. bhpa saja aa?? ntah eee. sooo new things bout me. aku upgrade udh to 3g. gila 2 jam ku nunggu tym 1st day aa.. atu smgt waa. smpai begila ane waa sanggup nunggu. huhh.

apa yg paling annoying nahh? my EX-GIRLFRIEND!! i dunno npa ea buleh jd catu. 1st she try to offend me then now she wants to hurt me!! hate those nicks yg PALUI lagi MEMALUIKAN aaa!! never mind, she's history anyway, why should i BLOODY-HELL care!!

i also want to highlight ada FILTHY LITTLE GOSSIP!! well bnrnya it's not a gossip. it's a darn-filthy-and-so-real FACT!! huhhh. tall story actually, but it's TRUE!! let's just said there were 2 guys in the empty class and CLOTHLESS!!! yup u get it. they're doing that DESPICABLE action ra SKEWL lagi tohh. sooo darn digusting.

enough bout that, let's talk bout my so-not-me behaviour! i usually dun do books. bt now. i'm sooo that NERD!! wtf?? am i me or what?? huhhh.. depressingggg... still thinking those bloody-filthy-hell exams. well, 2 moe to go!!

apa g aa?? btw, sorry for abusing languages. ahahahahaha. i write for fun baa. ukan nya minta mark ne. ahahahaha. pa g aa?? seriouslyyy. aku ane nyanyahhh ne mun bckp tp ane nda idea tiaaaa..

ohh yaaa, aku msa tu jumapa ma beshfren waa. tym atu g ku ra mall. ktanya na suka kmall, ku bwa ea jalan2 malr ea refuse, tapi dat dayy waa. aku nampak ea jalan w cousin nya.. shock juwa ku tohh.. caught red-handed eh?? mlasa ku ceta sal beshfren ane ee. SENSETIVE ISSUE! ahahahaha.

ermm.. i'll add more later k. pyh waa dumah nada espeed ane. huhh. *sighh*

i'm here!!

heyyy!! this is my first post! dunno oledi wat to post. i'm newbiee. so i really reallyyyy need helpp bout this blogging thingyy.

i guess my first post on my blogg would be an introduction of me.... well, ahmadi bin mohd. yusmin is the name given. please call me madie. and please DONT call me AHMADI as it is SO irritating. i'm onlyy turning to 17 year-old last month. yay! sweet 17!! still engage with skewl, BUU!! ahahahaha.

what can i say about me.... i live at Kampong sungai tilong (as if anyone know where) .. me and my phone were like ONLY-DEATH-TEARS-US-APART so basicallyy i spend most of the time wiff her, my perfect match, MY PHONE!!

now i'm bald, shitt waa, aku atu testing jaaa. nah kedebushh ee. it cost my whole hair. likin bnr. mun kuasi baa, belikin ku mkn taus toh. bt sbr sja tia. bnrnya nada ku ada idea g kn mbuat apa. btw, if ou want to know me add my email, madie_mania@hotmail.com .. blog later coz i have no idea wat to say agen.