let's hear it from the vintage spec. :D

hello people. if there is even any :P

anyways, for no reason i was in my nostalgic emotion. hahaha okay there's reasons actually. :(

1. i miss my friends.

2. my life was awesome.

3. i know my life now is as awesome. but i just cant leave it behind.

we all know that experience is for us to feel. to live in. and after time...

a) you miss it. and def want it to happen again.

b) it was a mistake. you regret it happened.

c) laughing at yourself. how time has change too fast.

but most of all. you'll think how things had been. depends on the experience itself. for instance, the downs. when you look back. there was nothing left, except darkness. well, learn from them to endure and be prepared for the worse.

how about happy moment? it makes you miss the old you. things changed so fast. very fast. look back. how you wish to go back. the people you share with. all be missed. hahaha but hear this:

my most regret experience is not when i had a bad day. but when i have a good day, i didnt do my best to deliver my part. :D

hahaha. i dont know where i found these sayings. but, they are all from what i think i feel. hahaha okay, move on. :P

truth is....

i miss my friends. my soas dudes. my butts friends. my chat friends. i miss being with them.

i think im not motivated. :( hahaha most of my close friends know that i can motivate people. that is just my nature. busybody. know things to talked about. so easy to let it out. hahaha its my nature.

but....

i cant motivate myself as much as i can give to others. maybe, you need it to hear it from others so you can be convinced? it's easier when i motivate people. but there is always hesitation in me....when i try to search my soul.

there is one more. i think i am in denial. i always see the lights in every dark. my nature of finding solution to problems make me thinks that all problems can go away....or at least been transformed to solution. too optimistic? hahaha. yes it is a good thing. but sometimes, i question my decisions. it is easier to deal with problems like.....doing work,etc. but it is hard to make decision for yourself. to search yourself.

all things that i mention here are the outcomes of my vintage spec.

i see differently now. everyday is a new day. and a new day is another good day. or not :P

14th January

hahaha i'm officially a someone's boyfriend!!!!

it's not really a new thing. hahaha i've been with her over two years already. :D guess the never-ending pursuit has never bored us. :D

hahaha not all people know about this. my family (well, most of them) and few friends were only the ones i've been telling to. it's my nature to not spread it out. and of course, because she's not officially mine. but now, we're officially a boyfriend and girlfriend :D so yeahhh.

so her name is Siti Nurul Syarifah. :D she's my girlfriend :D hahahaha pardon me for my iski-ness hahaha.

so i knew her back from form 4. i liked her from the first meet already. her smile....dominated all my sight. all other senses shut! it's like, all i could see was her. only her.

she was taken back then....so i backed off. then somehow fate brought us together. we developed a special relationship. full of doubts and questions. but there where the feelings had been ignited. hahaha. all i can say is. what we have. is not solid. we were developing the pursuit interestingly. my first proposal to her was exactly two years ago. 14th January 2009. and yes, i got rejected.

but i tried again last year. 14th January 2010. she wanted me to wait longer. well, at least after the exam shits end. but i didnt. hahahaha i want to tease her actually. how hard it was to wait :P well, another reason is because...im afraid of another rejection. it hurts like... let's just say even the second cut can still tear up as much as the first cut.

enough said.

hahahaha so yeahhh i proposed her yesterdays. i talked to her and i was so NERVOUS. i seriously should practice in front of a mirror or something! hahaha.

and tonight i called her again. because i dont want her to answer blindly. i want her to go through with everything. (: and guess what?

SHE SAID YES!!!!

im hers. and she's mine.

can you spell how happy i am?

IM SOOOOO HAPPPPPYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!

i love you Siti Nurul Syarifah.
i love.
you.

hahahaha okay, night people. :D

aint karma a bitch?

have you ever thought that your punishment to other is a punishment of yourself?

well you SHOULD! D:

i dont know much about revenge...

ohh shut up. okay okay, maybe i always have my vendetta with me. but...

sometimes, you need them to taste what you taste so they'll understand and learn. the method is WRONG but the right technique in delivering always do the tricks. :D

i dont really want to expose what is really happening (i know, im that insecure :P) hahaha but you can imagine something about.... i did something to this person 'cause at one point this person did this thing to me :( hahaha okay but i never see it as a revenge.... until now! D:

so now, im on that person shoes. :( and it didnt feel great. D:

ah well. you know what they said.

karma is a bitch.

hectic? story of my life -____-

before i start bragging about my life. i would like first to acknowledge myself for the great achievements that i had never expected from me. true story. who would've guess that i've done so many things. it's okay if people cannot see it. or for them it's not important. i dont impress anyone here. i beat myself off. i defeat what my mind had set for me. i am so proud to be me. guess limitation is what in your head. it teaches me that determination is what in your heart. :D

Hectic life. so, goodbye november. goodbye form sixth. goodbye homework. goodbye drama. goodbye pressure. i can list more, but that wont be necessary. :P

well. think again. hectic life, more to come!

hello drama, hello new commitments, hello ucas, hello Alevel result, hello attachment, hello HECTIC LIFE!

yesterday was a total bummer. i dont even want to start there. ugh. things happened so fast at once. when im ready to get hit. they're all pussy out. and when i'm vulnerable. BOOM. on my head.