let's hear it from the vintage spec. :D

hello people. if there is even any :P

anyways, for no reason i was in my nostalgic emotion. hahaha okay there's reasons actually. :(

1. i miss my friends.

2. my life was awesome.

3. i know my life now is as awesome. but i just cant leave it behind.

we all know that experience is for us to feel. to live in. and after time...

a) you miss it. and def want it to happen again.

b) it was a mistake. you regret it happened.

c) laughing at yourself. how time has change too fast.

but most of all. you'll think how things had been. depends on the experience itself. for instance, the downs. when you look back. there was nothing left, except darkness. well, learn from them to endure and be prepared for the worse.

how about happy moment? it makes you miss the old you. things changed so fast. very fast. look back. how you wish to go back. the people you share with. all be missed. hahaha but hear this:

my most regret experience is not when i had a bad day. but when i have a good day, i didnt do my best to deliver my part. :D

hahaha. i dont know where i found these sayings. but, they are all from what i think i feel. hahaha okay, move on. :P

truth is....

i miss my friends. my soas dudes. my butts friends. my chat friends. i miss being with them.

i think im not motivated. :( hahaha most of my close friends know that i can motivate people. that is just my nature. busybody. know things to talked about. so easy to let it out. hahaha its my nature.

but....

i cant motivate myself as much as i can give to others. maybe, you need it to hear it from others so you can be convinced? it's easier when i motivate people. but there is always hesitation in me....when i try to search my soul.

there is one more. i think i am in denial. i always see the lights in every dark. my nature of finding solution to problems make me thinks that all problems can go away....or at least been transformed to solution. too optimistic? hahaha. yes it is a good thing. but sometimes, i question my decisions. it is easier to deal with problems like.....doing work,etc. but it is hard to make decision for yourself. to search yourself.

all things that i mention here are the outcomes of my vintage spec.

i see differently now. everyday is a new day. and a new day is another good day. or not :P